Ok, The Big reveal.......
Yesterday was BLONDIES!!
Whats blondies? They are hot ang moh girls...Rite.......No la, Its the lighter colour of Brownies!
I followed the hersheys recipe and it was great! Not that i say i am good at making but it is really great! Elvin, Pam cheng, Esther Foong and Dot can all second that.
But what really dissappoints me was someone said it tasted like mooncake!!!! Lets take alook at the pictures....

Today i baked something.... Its a secret. All Photos and details will be revealed tomorrow.
PHOTO OF THE DAY:
I found this at JE NTUC today while buying my ingredients. Its $1.35. BUY 1 GET 1 FREE!!!! LOL Good bargain

Todays topic is: SIMPLE MEALHm, todays my first day of work. i actually decided not to touch the kitchen since i am working in the afternoon. Then i got hungry so i stepped in and made something simple. Really really simple. I cooked speghetti with no sauce. It just spegehtti, Garlic, Olive oil (extra virgin) and rosemary. Its a really simple bland pasta. People who do not like savoury food would love it. Then i just boiled some ready-made frozen meetballs. similar to those you find in noodle stalls. Over the weekend, we had a boating activity. scrow down for some of the pictures. Oh and yunli gave me a brilliant idea for a cookie. I'm gonna try. Thanks yunli. Credit to you if it suceeds =)

Today is COOKIES DAY. Its not international, But its my COOKIES DAY!
Woke up today and made cookies. The 1st batch turned out really bad. It looked like biscuit and tasted too sweet. And i did't butter the pan enuf so it got all stuck to the pan. Then for the second batch, I added more flour so it turned out nicer. The last batch was i tink the best cause it turned out golden brown. They are not the best cookies around, but theya re still edible. Oh, and besides chocolate chip cookies, i made peanut butter chocolate chip cookies

The 1st batch of 'biscuits'(look more like side by side plant cells. lol)

Go got so fed up taking them out, i mad them into crumbles (and later i threw them away)

The much ok looking 3rd batch

The final brownish batch

Ok, i fell into temptation... I went to mess up the kitchen and whipped up a meal
I cooked Baked fish the italian style. Found the reciepe from Jamie Oliver's website... I am a big fan of him! I saw his cook book at popular. i wanted to get it, but it cost a hefty $40. The fish( 2 sea bass, 1 tuna) is stuffed with lemon, Basil and parsley. Then burried in salt(i used 3kg), lemon skin, orang skin, egg, fennel seeds and water. Then i also cooked a simple pasta. I used speghetti, garlic, rosemary and extra virgin olive oil. Go figure how it taste... The fish ended up savoury with the salt keeping the taste of the fish in. However as it is burried in salt, some parts of the fish got really salty. Here are the pictures...
The salt mixture
My 2 sea bass and 1 tuna (where are my loafs?)
The fish burried in the salt mixture.

Argh, i am watching 'oliver's twist' now... not the story, the cooking show... Jamie Oliver makes cooking look so easy. Feel so tempted to mess up the kitchen and try new stuff...

When i tort i was gonna have an exciting week at work, i was WRONG. I was wishful thinking..(did i use it correctly?) I 'tort' that i would start work. but actually was just going down to settle paper work. Next week then i'll start to get work. Then again, i'll still be able to attend the dragon boat activity on saturday... Tomorrow is another boring day. Bye, this is getting so uninteresting. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
RANDON PIC =)
WOOOO!!!! HOT STUFF!

Start of something new
Tomorow will be the start of something new again. I am going back to sentosa to work again. I pray that i will get back the shop i use to work. So that i would have more freedom to go church, meet up with friends and stuff like that. Lord please give me something good. And more weekends off.....
Today is just a normal day, woke out, watch TV, fell asleep, watch TV again and then now blogging... I am so so bored. But tomorrow onwards its not gonna be. wish i wold be able to go for this saturdays youth activity.. Dragon boat. Sounds fun. Bye!

Today went down to expo early in the morning to help out in the Asian Idol.. Sacrificed alot of sleep, but its worth it! Got to take alot alot of photos... Of Jasmine Trias and with Jasmine Trias. She so pretty...heehee...teeko...Anyway, i am tired, so let the pictures do the talking...
Me and Jasmine Trias
Me and Jasmine Trias again... I look Teeko
Nice Back (i like this, it looks like an image of not knowing whats infront of you)
Nice side
And a nice front (taken my me... I think this is a nice shot)

Today was as usual pretty boring as usual. Woke up at 12+ then went out alone for lunch and to get some stuff... Then went home, watched high school musical. Nice show. Thanks dot for the DVD. Gabriella is so pretty. So is Sharpay. I am not gonna return dot, i gonna watch a few more times... Then went net in the evening..then waulau, no lesson go for fun. Me and matt left at 9 then i accompany him go eat then go home.

To my dearest nicest and most annoying friend(heehee, you know who you are)
Thanks for being there for me throughout this whole week. Your sms and the chats we had really cheered me up alot. You rock!!! Come On!!! I'll give you a treat someday and buy you a nice present for your coming birthday.
And, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me toooooooooooo.
Seriously, if you really need help, i am here for you..
There are still somethings i want to KPO about you..heehee..
Thanks....

Why?
Why?
Why?
Its only during the late night where all the bad feelings start to come....

The starting

The PJC council song

Harold. Look like frankenstein

Harold, Me and WeiMing. The Tanglinians!

I have qut my job at fish&co. cause they give me too little time to work as they have to many staffs. Anyway i got back my sentosa job. so you will be seeing mess for a while. i'll become lower profile...
You've done it twice, i thought of the last two times and i felt angry. Please don't do this another time...

Its 3+ in the morning. I am feeling tired but i just can't sleep. Its as usual, one of those nights where i need the tv to help me fall asleep. But it somehow isn't working today. Alot of thoughts are running thru my mind right now. There's this terrible thing that is running thru that i just can't get rid of. I am greatly disturbed by it yet i cannot do anything to stop it. Only time will do the trick i hope.

I wanna go back to sentosa. I miss the place. I don't like my job now at Fish&co. They only give me like 10hours a week and its not like i am studying. But going back means less time for other activties... Should i stay or should i go?

Today woke up at 6+. Then had brunch then went to Choa Chu Kang to play soccer withh matthew and his sec school friends(which i dunno). They all quite good just that they dribble too much. Then played from2 to like 6+ then went matthews house to bathe then we went to eat. We ate KFC. Then went over to fabian's house for net. We started at 8+ we rushed our lesson so that we could catch the last episord of the 9pm show. so funny, we just went thru the lesson fast. Then went home. Thats all for today. AH! tml got edge, get to see everyone again. Its nice to fellowship....

ATLANTA - Coca-Cola and Pepsi are usually bitter enemies, but when PepsiCo Inc. got a letter offering to sell Coke trade secrets, it went straight to its corporate rival.
Six weeks later, three people face federal charges of stealing confidential information, including a sample of a new drink, from The Coca-Cola Co. and trying to sell it to PepsiCo Inc.
“Competition can sometimes be fierce, but also must be fair and legal,” Pepsi spokesman Dave DeCecco said. “We’re pleased the authorities and the FBI have identified the people responsible for this.”

I read a news and found it interesting. Lets give pepsi a clap for being so honest

today is such a cool day. when i was out, i didn't feel hot at all. I didn't perspire much at all. today when to the dentist then to cut hair. Reached home around 3pm. Then i have been slacking at home since then. well, i wish i could go out, go catch a movie or something like that. but not alone! lol. atleast i have something more interesting to do tomorrow. hope i'll have fun. byes!

SPILLED..... yes i spilled a drink today. And the customer got wet. lucky she wasn't angry and said it was ok. was holding the tray then the cup slipped as i tilted it a little and the whole cup went on to the table. Today Esthert, Estherf, elvin, sheena, declan, jocelyn, dorothy, john, fabian and matthew came down to eat at Fish&co. I feel so funny serving them.. i wished i was joining them instead. Argh i am so tired. Tomorrow going dentist. i hope nothings gonna be plucked.
byebye.

I am getting more familiar with work.. today actually work from 12-4 only. Then some guy cannot make it, they ask me to work 6-11 as well. so i work lor. SO my break was from 4-6. Lucky esther tan and dorothy came down to meet me. if not i will not know what i will be doing for the 2 hours. we went to siam kitchen. Jocelyn and sheena joined us after that. Time really flew fast and i started work again. The night shift moved super super slow. Was dying to go home. I feel so tired and i tink i am falling sick. I think i drank too much sweet drinks. coz the coke, spirte and iced-lemon tea was free follow for me.... tml working from 12-9.. then not working for the reswt of the week already.

Its back to a monday again... not working today... after i woke up, i switched on the TV... was jumping channels when i saw a show starting on channel56. It turned out to be a Japanese show called hinokio. Its about a boy whose mother died and had his leg paralized. he never stepped out of his house. So his father developed a robot so that he can physically be home but go to school and all that.. Then the rest turned out to be a love story, blah blah blah....
Tonight going toa payoh again for the outreach thing. Oh yah Jasmine Trias is coming to our outreach.... Yes Jasmine Trias, one of the american idol contestant... You didn't hear wrong. I'm going to try get a picture with her..... hehe...

Argh!! i am addicted to durian. I can't stop! It's addictive...

Just now went geylang for durian with my parents.. saw lots of INTERESTING THINGS!!!
like....
1.Bangla trying out durian. They bought $1 durian. the ate and ran... i took a picture of them eating on my HP...
2. Saw alot of China chickens... they look sick... some even plump
3. A whole bunch of man, singaporean old man and china men waiting outside a hotel...LOL you know what i mean la....
Today is my 4th day at Fish&Co... Its getting evern more busy as the days go by... but i like the working hours...

I WANT TO BE A CASH MACHINE!

2nd day of work is ok. Just that it is more busy then monday. Argh! so bored at home. Nobody to tok to( i wish i had another brother or sister and i know how people like matthew feels. so pitiful, no one to tok to, no one to fight with, no one to quarrel with.), nothing to do. Everything you do in Singapore cost you money. i can't afford to do everything.
If i had 1million dollars...
-10% will go as usual
-i would 1st buy a condo or shop and rent it out to get money every month. then sell it once the price rises
-i would buy what ever i want with the leftover.
-i would buy a thing for all of my friends which they want i cannot afford.
-extra money goes into building fund.


Well, a group of us have been working hard these few weeks to bring you activities and fill your holiday with nice stuff and things to do. Proud of all of you for coming to these stuff.. Hope all of you continue to show your support. The more u support the more we want to do it for you. hope the bond strenghtens. hope you will be the one doing these things next.
If you are attentive enuf, you know who i am refering to.
Everything was done so you would come... geddit?

Today is my 1st day at Fish&Co. Quite slack coz its a monday afternoon. Learn abit of new stuff. colleages are ok just that i never really tok to them. Buts thats what happen on all my '1st day' at work. Maybe in afew days or weeks, will be easier to tok to them. Quite shy to tok. Only work 10-3. Thank God. i felt so tired from the lack of sleep the previous day. Byebye

Sometimes, its just so hard to act normal.

Yunli, your blog got torres, my blog also have
Sorry Japan, but you are out!
WOOHOO! SPAIN ALL THE WAY!

i am so bored so i did this for fun.
My messy room 1
My messy room 2
My messy room 3
Spot me
My pluck
I was worse....Primary 4. June 1999

I took this picture...
cool?
The picture quality dropped on blogger
The actual pic is much clearer

























Life.....
Life never goes the way you want it to go. Not everything goes your way. Sometimes, you need to accept the fact and adapt to it. Its either your or not. Nothing is constant. The only things that are constant are changes and GOD. So what if someone else has it and not you? You are special in your own way. Maybe someone is rich, and maybe you are not. But you might be healthier then the other person. So what if you are ugly? Maybe you have a good heart. Most loves people with good hearts. So what if you are good looking, you might not have any friends except your boyfriend or girlfriend. No point falling into depression over things that people have and not you. You are unique, you are special and there is something really nice inside of you that is waiting to come out. So, reflect on yourself and know what you really are and what you really want.
-This is not targeted at anyone. Its just my thoughts

Yesterday we had corperate youth activity. lucky i was not one of the organisers.. i need some fun too as a participant. It was inter-region war games. Not very regional tho. But atleast our region people got to stick together in the same group. I was the general..... GENERAL ANG! wemanage to end the game with 2 conquered continants and in 2nd place. our allie got 1st. Theya re region B. Next time corperate activity, only Region F and B plays. coz its always either they win or we win. Our Group was the champion of SUDDEN DEATHS. We took part in 5 and won 3. 2 by me, 1 by Declan.... WOoooo I AM THE KING OF SUDDEN DEATHS. After activity, we went down to bukit timah for dinner and john joined us. After dinner we went our seperate ways.

Today woke up, went to play soccer with my ex classmates from 11.30 to around 4pm. Woooo we keep wining those muds... bunch of losers..... then we decided to go home despite winning... So tired and hungry now. Later still got caregroup...
I hope the fish&co allows me to start work next week. i really need to kill time and earn some extra cash.

Feel so sian this few days.
bored
don't feel like doing anything
lazy
blogging for the sake if killing time..
i need a motivation to do things...

Nothing much happened today just that i got super embarassed during service. went to church, went for fathers' day lunch at bedok, went back to church.
Lets have faith in God.
I hope what i heard was correct.
If its yours its yours.If its not yours its not yours.
you, missed

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!
Today had a day with lots of ups and downs. Being blasted and jeered at by people for wrong decisions..wooo....scary... why fear. GOD is with me...Don't feel like elaborating. Just have one thing to say... R11/12 ARE THE CHAMPIONS!
What a volley!

Who is the King of the Jungle

What a bad way to start a day. 1st i woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. Then after i woke up. i went to make brunch. I was trying to make half boiled eggs. But i guess the water and egg didn't like me and i ended up having 7/8 boiled egg. Then while opening the egg, i burnt my hand and guess what? i dropped the egg onto the floor. The floor turned sticky(ewww) then before i could evern start eating, i had to scrub the floor. Next, i did one of the most pity things that Pastor John Andrew told us. Was having meals ALONE. But i guess i am used to it with my brother in army and my parents busy working. Need to go queenswway later. Got to diff sides as me to go queensway as well. i wonder who to go with.
If ever you have a lonely day with no one to lunch with, call me and if i am not working, i'll meet up with you.

I'll tok about yesturday. Yesturday had sentosa outing with the youths. i had fun. And i hope they had fun too! Activity only lasted for an hour or so. Then we had our free and easy time. !st time i felt so appreciated by the youths coz a few of them came up and thank me for what i have done.I dun mind organising more outings in future. COz i feel happy when i see others enjoying my activity :)
Took some pictures,had some fun then went thenw ent to the adelphi for dinner. Then headed back home. On the way home i had a private chat with Esther Tan. Really thank God for blessing me with a sista like her and blessing me with the things she told me.
Act Jap girls!
Dead!
Constipated....

Who is the king of the Jungle?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LBQkrBI0qM0

i realise something. i keep taking pictures of others and things that i dun have pictures of myself. Next time you see me, snatch my cam and take my pic. Oh no, i sound so vain!

Today woke up earlier then usual and went to sentosa. Did recce for thursday's activity. Suppose to have 4 people going. End up only 3 went. Dissappointed but nvm, it still goes on. Found places for the game and then headed to JP to look for a job. I'VE GOT A JOB!!! at Fish&Co. And the timing is quite good for me. i get to choose what time to work on the weekends.

IT'S A GIRLS THING!
Today i attended a girls worshop. Not as a participant but as a volunteer. I learn quite a lot of things. but not what the girls learnt. i learned how to set a table for a formal event, fold cloth and serving in a formal event. But i did more of the technical stuff. Managed to talk to WeiXiang today. Or he talked to me. Usually had nothing to tok to him accept 'hi! and bye!' But today he opened up and talked. so happy! hope can talk to him more often next time.
Watched 'CARS' in the evening. its a really good cartoon. Its value for money! very touching story about friendship. Go watch!

I am back from malaysia... alot of bad things happened, but i had fun. 1st day, there was a banquet what we found a cocoroach in the vegetable. EW... i stayed with elvin and john. Elvin was sick all the way, poor boy. On tuesday, had morning session then the whole afternoon was gone to the inter region soccer tournament. We won 6-0. This game only allowed girls to score. then we had session at night. AT night after around 12, esther came to the door and rang it looking for elvin. so i open the door and let them in. then... suddenly the all the youths were in the room celebrating my birthday. estehr bought an ice-cream for me... so nice of her. i didn't expect them to just come in and celebrate it for me like that. Then on my birthday, we went to sunway lagoon. The weather was not on our side. we queued 1/2 and hour for a ride and then it had to be closed due to the weather. then we waited 1/2 an hour for another ride. We only had 4 hours as we arrived and 2 and the theme park closed at 6. So 1 hour was gone to only one ride. but the rest of the rides were ok. i went against my fears for the viking ship which went 360 degrees! scary sia. the wet rides were better then the dried ones. After sunway we went to eat at 'secret reciepe' its so cheap there. Then we went shopping beside didn't buy anything at first then we took some photos from the balcony of the shopping centre. Then the rest left earlier in a chartered van leaving me, john, elvin and esther foong. we headed for F.O.S(factory outlet store) instead of the taxi stand. And guess what? John and i found original rip curls board shorts at RM40! woohoo. and its not fake its just a little defect. But nothing can be wrong! Now i'll tok about the journey back. we were one of the last bus to leave. then nvm, half way not even out of KL, the bus stopped and say faulty then we had to wait for another bus. we waited around 1-2hour before the next bus came then when i reached customs, i was caught by police and brought to a small room... cause of CHEWING GUMS! some gone. but they failed to take all. i still have some with me.lol. Reach JE at 11 then went Macs then go home...
Rambu-Tan and me
The youths at sunway

I like this! i wan one..


This will do as well. Heehee!

argh, dunno why cannot sleep lately, yest, i only manage to sleep at 5am. going malaysia in 2 days. woohoo. can't wait.

last night slept around 4+ or 5+ tossed and turned for quite long still cannot sleep. Dunno why... think of all sorts of funny stuff but just couldn't sleep. then i woke up at 10+ then i came out to watch tv and fell asleep until like 3 then i woke up. then eat lunch then went to meet people then go play. were suppose to play captains ball and block catching but end up nv, we ended up playing soccer instead. argh i guess i really cannopt play, my knee is hurting. had dinner at macs with them all then we all went seperate ways. when i came back i discovered my brother had a stitches on his forehead. eeww..... sick! in the middle of the forehead sumore. so ugly. i'll post a photo of my brother's forehead soon. i feel so tired. i hope i wwill be able to sleep well tonight.

31/5/2006
Another boring day.... i am so bored. Atleast today wasn't so bad. made shepard's pie on my own. Haha 1st time leh. Had dinner at someone's place, nice food, had fun! watched Singapore Idol, Paul Twohill is not bad.
I need someone to talk to.
I need someone to help me kill boredom.
I need a life!
My life is now cartoons from i wake up to around 7pm
Chinese and English shows till 2-3am
Then sleep. Then wake up.
Then same thing again.
Want to go out but no cash.
Want to go exercise but my knee stops me from doing so.
Whats next? heehee, wait till i get back from Malaysia and i'll get a job.
Then i treat you(whoever you are reading my blog and if i know you.) as long as you go out with me.
Malaysia i am coming. I can't wait.
Ramli burgers,
Cheap food,
Cheap stuff,
Gums.

TurKua anyone?


PMs....(Public messages not private)
-Fab, take care and good luck with NS
-Gab, come back from malaysia must bring me go interview
-Dec, go queensway
-Jason Oon, go queensway
-Matt, got anything tok to me, i can lend a ear altho i can't give advice. Go out for a drink and tok also can.
-Jason Tan, Tok rubbish to me, i very bored.
-Elvin Foong(president), Esther Tan(V.president) and John Tan( i dunno whats your post), whens our next fat club outing?
-Wilson, faster reply me to confirm the approval of the outing(without you)haha
-Dot, i need more mashmallows! A week's supply of it! kidding! SIALA!!!
-Jocelyn, You better act properly next rehearsal! We use fake names for the rehearsals. On the actual day then we use the names i came up with for topic 2 of the act.
-Yunli, Can you organise some outing for 2nd SC alumni?
-Harold, Where u go? y nv tok to me or nudge me already?
-4e2 brothers, Can we go town or something like that together? its been long....
-4e2 classmates, Outing please?
-Primary school friends, what happened to the all of you guys?

I tink i am blogging nonsense. if you don't understand anything here, you are not dumb, its just the writer who is the dumb one. Heehee. Siao!

I stayed at home the whole day! Nothing muched happened.

Joker Tan!

hey auntie chua, i said i was going to post a photo with you.... LOOK!

look at me 3 years ago heehee chubby piece of lard...(click for bigger pic}

Help! i need money to get pass this week.... haha, i am officially broke. Any sponsors? Pay me to do anything... i'll do it.... Today i woke up at 10+ i realised no matter how tired i am, i can only sleep at the most 8hours at a time. Watch some tv, fell asleep and webt out for dinner together with fab, rich and matt at marina.. fabians going into army soon, send ur regards to him ASAP... i need to lose weight! maybe having no money is a good idea...haha. byebye, nothing interesting in my life to blog so far.

Hmm.... its 2+ in the morning and i am not asleep yet. i dun feel like sleeping.. somehow don't feel like.... i am blogging because theres nobody to chat with and nothing to watch on tv. Just a normal sunday, nothing much happened... evening was great.... R11 is gonna be seperated from R12 soon... maybe 15months time? Having mixed feelings about it. It means we are multiplying in numbers but i am going to miss my friends from R12. From seeing them 2-3times a week becomes onces a week.. sad case. can't wait another week to go to MalaySIA! i guess i'll go to sleep and catch my cartoons in the later morning....bye!

Woohoo, manage to last through out the whole cycling journey... sumore, my group made full use of the $10 as we went the wrong way...heehee...cheapskate jon! At one point we cycle in CBD then got alot of Bangla sitting infront of a building. Then i told them got 'hei she hui'.lol. This week has been pretty much doing nothing, trying to get my knee healed...applied lots and lots of yoko-yoko. Anyways i like the smell and the feeling. My parents want me to go NS before i continue further studies...how? Can't wait to go to malaysia the week after. Haven't been there for quite some time. Tired! Tired! Tired! didn't really sleep much after coming home from the cycling. d\Didn't want to sleep so i just lied on the sofa and eventually fell asleep. But i woke up very often. After tomorrow, it will be another boring week again..... Today celebrated gabriel's birthday. i purposely went to get a cake with a hello kitty on it. we also bought a CD for him.

i realised this is my 100th post.....woohoo!

This song DOES NOT apply to me but hey, its nice....

Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning) Lyrics
by Vertical Horizon
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Today is a bad day......BUT, i shall not go on about... now i feel tat bloging positive things better... Negative things are bad, they cause you to think alot and then..."BOO!" you are into a state of depression....Hee....i have it very often. I am so free now that i start thinking and it goes really far. and sometimes go bad. Life is really free... zhou yi bu shuan yi bu... anybody going out call me. please...haha
oh, and i wan to talk to more people online.......heehee... people that i know la....

i officially dropped out of school this week... feel kind of relieve from the things i have to force myself to do. i have 7 months free, what am i going to do? i also dunno. have been going to church every evening this week, but i didn't really listen to anything... dunno why but i feel so grouchy today. Everything seems to get on my nerves and i feel like scolding whatever provokes me, that includes the computer. almost lost my temper for no reason after service when no one wanted to go for dinner, i also dunno why, serious i dunno why. if i have offended anyone or was hostile to anyone, i am sorry. i didn't mean to do what i did. just that i am not feeling how i usually feel.... i need a job..... a good one that allows me weekends off.....

i guess i am 90% quiting NP and MMA....
made a big mistake getting into the course...
its intersting,
but i realised i have no interest in it...
looks like a year is going to be wasted...
i hope everything will be fine...
god, help me.....

Walk one step, count one step....

Argh... i feel so uncomfortable.....
i feel like everyday is an examination
everyday a project, i feel so tense
i feel like i choose the wrong course
and i think its too late. I don't wan to waste my parents money
i feel so lousy seeing others better then me.
is my class too competative or am i just thinking too much?
i have to go on for another 2-3 more years....
God! i need strength
and help to not think so much.....

Argh...Project based learning! SICK! i hate it.
4 hours per lesson.
Miss one lesson and you have lesser CA MARKS
Miss one lesson and you are gone.
After every lesson, got more researchs to do for the next lesson
Just had Drawing Fundamentals module on Friday.
And the homework to complete 5 sketches per week...
and i can't draw
i hate Drawing
How to use macromedia Flash.. some one teach me....
i feel so scared to miss school.
I AM STARTING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH HATING SCHOOL

I HAVE POSTED A STUPID PICTURE OF ME TO CHEER EVERY STRESSFUL PERSON UP.
I suddenly feel so ON for christ. I dunno what triggered it but i really very very happy and contented with my life now. i felt that i have came a long way. It amazing how you still ahve strenght to do things despite being physically tired. This is the Number 17 year of my life and i feel that i have a fruitful life being able to learn alot from the ups and downs in life. i look as my live as a very adventurous one. The highest point and my lowest during my fourth year in secondary school where i was elected to be the president of the student council. I am not boasting but being in that position really enabled me to be prepared for the world, undertstanding things that not many people understand. There are like 100+ T0 200+ school and each school only has one president of student council, or some call it head-prefect. i feel so privillege to be the only one in school to hold that position and authority. You know what the most enjoyable thing for me? its to see people happy and enjoying the programmes that i organise.
Example:
To those of my church friends, i felt so so happy when you people were enjoying my game at the youthnet rally. And God is the one who placed this games and ideas in my head. so i really thank god for it.
To those who use to be from my student council, the happiest point in my time as president was seeing you people enjoy the 2D1N camp in JUNE2005 mingling around with the littl primary school kids...hehe....
I am a person who is easily contented. As long as people around me are happy, i willing to do anything. i feel that i am an enthusiastic person. If you treat me as a friend, i am willing to go all the way out to help you.

Look at the happy side of life, it might be easier said then done, but well, life is never they way you want it to be.
TO 'THE YOU KNOW WHO', I HOPED ME EMAIL HELPED YOU....


ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE
Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life...

School is OK!, made some friends here and there. i realised, my course has barely any lecture, all projects. one day the most only 2 modules and each module is like 4hours...lol sounds like RP... argh next week the lessons officially start and theres drawing...oh no i am so dead..... Haven really joined any CCA yet but i am rather intersted in joining floorball. so i emailed them. They emailed me back and ask me to join them today at 5.30... but, i didn't bring my notebook to school, so i only read it at 5 when i reached home.. so no choice but to go next week...haiz... i hope the next time i go, there will be year 1s, so i would not feel so funny...

is the picture working?

Minding your own business is the best, nobody is there to scold you and think you are totally wrong.... i have learned my lesson. have you?

School is starting in a weeks time. i am soo excited, new friends, new environment. some people have started poly today. i wish my started today then my holiday will come sooner. went out today, play pool, lost every match haha... i am so so lousy. time flys fast, i am already in poly. i need more friends, REAL friends. hope i'll find some in my course.

I was listening to the song photograph. the lyrics are so meaningful and i started to think back to the secondary school days.
i thought of my classmates, fooling aroudn in class, the jokes, racist or not, funny things that happen to evryone, graduation night, teachers, student councillors, the nervous times i had before my speeches on stage. the supper sessions i had with the councillors after every big events and functions. the cheering and fooling around times in sc room before and after school. i miss everyone. now everyone is busy with new life, new friends. just hope that atleast once a year, we will come together again and talk all night about the wonderful times we had in school. i'm sure everyone will be shocked with each other, how much we have changed over a year or so. Goodbye goodbye, good old times...

Photograph - Nickelback
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

(And)this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I've broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should I go back and try to graduate
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in
(Oh oh oh
Oh god I, I)

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it,
time to say it
Goodbye goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say it,
time to say it
Goodbye goodbye

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since God knows when
(Oh oh oh
Oh god I, I)

(Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it,
time to say it
Goodbye goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it,
time to say it
Goodbye goodbye)

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye goodbye
(Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it,
time to say it
Goodbye goodbye)

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me

We.................
are from FOC,
famous in NP
come of a very big family.
Fight for glory,
Fight for victory.......

I am back from my freshman's orientation camp. I tink the programmes were really good but not the organisation was not.... Now i know the differences between Secondary school camps and Tertiary school camps... But to me, i had an unsuccessful camp because i never really made any friends. There are two groups of people, The super enthu and the very quiet, as u all know i talk alot, so its not possible that i fit in with them. On the other hand, the super enthu people talked too much, its not a bad thing but i can't fit in with them as i am not SUPER enthu.... So i felt super leftout but the group.... And to make things worse, the most enthu guy in my group was also called Jonathan.. so i had a really really hard time... so everyone would call, jonathan! jonathan! i make myself not respond coz i know its not me..... so sad....The enthu group only stick to themselves despite only saying that they will mix with the rest, they sat together at every meal leaving the quiet ones to a corner.... They talk about clubbing, basketball, rugby and i know nuts. So nothing in common to talk about... Well the camp is over, no point crying over it. They say they are going to organise outings for the group... i wonder whether they would know i exist or even call me out for it. Haiz... now i just hope i would make more friends in my course instead. anyway, they are the ones who are going to be with me folr the next 3 years


PUMP IT!
LOUDER!
PUMP IT!
LOUDER!
PUMP IT!
PUMP IT!
I know that you like my style
i know that you like my style
Every Oannes in the camp get wild,
We're gonna kick ur ball right now!
Wazzup! Wazzup! with you girls?
Wazzup! Wazzup! with you boys?
Wazzup! Wazzup! with you girls?
Wazzup! Wazzup! with you boys?
Wohhhhhh!!!!!!
BACK IT UP!
BACK IT UP!
YOU GOT IT!
YOU GOT IT
PUT YA HANDS UP!
PUT YA HANDS UP!
A-HA-A-HA-A-HA
BOOM SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE THE ROOM
BOOM SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE THE ROOM
BOOM SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE THE ROOM
TICK TICK TICK TICK
BOOM!

Apple came home today.
I carried it all the way from orchard cineleisure, took mrt home. It not as light as it looks....Apple is sooo hard to use, so unlike microsoft windows which so much easier to use....argh everything is opposite and the mouse has only one button!!!
I don't love apple neither do i hate apple.... it looks so nice but its really really hard to use....I tink i prefer windows!!! but the speed of the internet is really fast compared to my few month old desktop. No 'start' bar very troublesome, dunno where to find what i wan....Argh should have attended the class that the company provided.... actually wanted to go to tanglin sec sports day but in the end nv go coz nobody go with me.... But luckily i didn't go... why? Coz its raining now!!! sian sian, tomorrow is the last day of my work...hurray!!! stupid sentosa management delayed my pay..... i am suppose to get it yesturday... i planned to have my shopping spree with with declan, but i had to cancel it :'(.........I need money.... any sponsors?? haha....
catch up soon....bye!

I AM READY!
New lifestyle coming up in 3weeks time... Woohoo i can't wait, new environment, new friends. But as usually, i would wonder like everyone does whetehr i will get friends and whether i will get a good class... suddenly feel like studying hard so that i can go to a local university... but i hope its not a 1minute thing...
I suddenly feel of refresh in my christian walk....... i am no longer going to walk, but i gonna rush and run! No time! No time! i am so inspired by tonigth message. i am glad i decided not to be lazy and stay home as usual.

Was wondering on the way back fome just now... started to think, whats my talent? whats my gift? some people have gift and talents in sports, music, studies, computer games, etc. I have none... the only thing i can think of that i have is talking.... and i talk a whole load of rubbish and crap....Leadership? i have no followers so i am not a leader....

what YOUR talent? i wanna hear from you (i am so bored at home....) :P

Hee Hee, with less than two weeks to go on my job, i decided to use my privilages... i went to ben and jerry's... i had 10% off, ok ok only la.... i decided to sit there and enjoy my ice-cream since i had so much time. Siting there, i started to chat with the girl and the guy working there... Quite nice people, also part-times but have less privilages than us, under sentosa leisure group. I got to eat all the different ice-creams... but not alot, just a little bit of each..... After i ended work, i was going to take bus then i saw the ben and jerry's girl, we took the same bus and i didn't know she lived in the same estate as me. Haha, what a coincidence.... we chatted awhile on the bus then stopped as we had nothing else to chat about...
ok, making more frends is a good thing, you get benefits everywhere.....afterall, having another fren is better then an enermy

Heyhey..... two more weeks i am gonna be out of job.....I am SACKED.......no la, how could a fine young fat man like me get fired from a job.....that would be so'throw face'..... I quited my job finally...mroe time to laze around but less cash to spend.... i am so gonna miss my colleages... anyways, i decided to stop workin coz i really miss church people and my frends, after working, you would realise how they make ur life better...Having a part time job really gives me alot of experience, i am sure i'll be able to adapt to working life in the future... When you get a first job, you will only think whether u can handle the workload, but workload is only 50%, the other 50% goes to handling difficult colleages,managers and last of all, BACKSTABBERS..... you will know the true side of human which you will nv find in school.... things that are done against people at workare worst then those that are done in school.... anyway, my advice to people going out into the world wo work is, get a part-time job first, dun jump straight into a full-time job.....

Next, the edge was great... whats gonna happen in 525600minutes from now? what will u be thinking and what will u be saying? is it positive or negative? thinking over what jeremy said, i want to be saying something like, i am sure what i did 525600minutes ago was worth it... nothign comes witout sacrifice.... i dun just wan to be a bystander or spectator, i wan to run!!!
so many upcoming events in church... i am Soooooooo excited.... i mean it....allehluya

i heard this song on radio, found it rather meaningful so i went to search for the lyrics

Everybody's Free (to wear sunscreen)
Mary SchmichChicago Tribune

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are NOT as fat as you imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind. The race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.
Dance. Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.

Hello there pple,
Been working at sentosa for almost 5 weeks now.... works all ok.
Colleages are ok.
supervisor is ok.
Manager? Definately not ok....lol
dun like her but dun see her that often too. so doesn't really matter. the pay is good and i spent my first 2 weeks pay all on a PSP.....
Haven't been going to church very often lately... and i feel quite guilty tho. I really miss everyone in church expecially after service hangout and after edge dinners. But what to do? you can't have everything going your way. i'll try to go church more often.
i missed alot of things due to work, going out with friends, SC investiture....
i will be quiting in 5 weeks... i wonder whether i should continue after Poly starts.
Next friday, the posting will be out. i hope i can get into my 1st choice... then i am going to work really hard and try to get into uni....i hope so....
Hm...... i wonder why? is there a lack of concern for each other in my community?


I realised many things after starting to work. You start to notice things that you don't usually do in life. Many of us fall to things that we don't know. Now i know that i have fallen and i will try to change it.

Today woke up and did nothing. wake up, eat, go out play pool. Ather that walk in ginza, eat then go home again. Eat! Eat! Eat!
Oh yah i found a new job. Its is sentosa, well i dreamt of working there after poly. I manage to get a job before that. Oh yah and its 6.50 per hour!!! WOOHOO!!!! but that would also mean that i would have to work on weekends......
No time! No time!

I'm free..........
If i had wings i would fly,
all that i need you are.........

i stopped working, working is so boring so i quited. dun plan to work any longer, i enjoy school more then work. anyways, i have in at home the whole week and feeling rather bored. so i decided its time i started blogging. maybe i would blog everyday from now since i am so free. i stayed at home the whole week due to an insect bite then went bad and became an infection. it strted of just being swollen. after two days, i little yellow dot like a pimple emerged and it slowly got bigger and it occupied the top parts of my Big toe on the right foot.
As it grew bigger, more and more pus were oozing out. i had to use a tissue paper to tap it every 5-10mins so that it will not flow and drip. it also sppeds up the healing process. i see a improvement in the condition, i hope in a few days more, it will be fully recovered. Anyway i went to republic polytechnic's new campus today, the buildings were not all done yet and there were limited places we could walk around, it was boring and nothing much to see. i spotted a course that i could add to my interested list. It is Diploma in Sports and Exercise Science. rather interesting however they are only accepting 75 students for that course. Went home after the poly and did nothing useful. tomorrow i might be going down toNanyang Polytechnic to help eunice in preparing for the promotion of the new course. what am i going to do? make gummy bears.... i am serious. the course is food sciences...
i dun tink i have anymore things to say so byebye...

After 2 days of fun, i am finally back home and prepared to start work...... i am currently working at yuki-yaki(or yaki-yuki. i am unsure which is it...)restuarant. Not really looking forward to work... well now i understand y the adults like to say, study while you can.... ok.... i had to work on the 1st day or chalet so no choice only reached the chalet around 12+. The next day, we went to WILD WILD WET. Well its not bad quite fun..... we only paid2+ each as some kind soul gave us free tickets as it was the expiry date. It was a hot hot afternoon until it started to rain. then we left, feeling hungry, we went back for cup noodles. And watch "the best of america's funniest home video" After i bathe, i didn't wear my shirt as i felt so much heat on my body. i didn't know my whole body was red from the sun and i was said to be a lobster...lol....
At night, we had BBQ and chatted, played and hangout through the night until around 5+ then they wanted to sleep, as i had to go to church, i didn't sleep and the only people left awake was me, christina and ming. i started taking photo's of the different individuals sleeping, upon seeing it, Ming and christina started to add props to them and many hilarious photos were taken. such as Jasmine's feet less then 5cm away from harold's face without him knowing. Khairul had a "JACK" card stuffed inbetween his butt and he became a jackass.... lol...
alrite! alrite! enuf of nonsence...
Jonathan signing-off. Adios